Photography, Photoshoot, Poems

Veversken Tid

Photo by Irina Bileanschi, 2016 📸 Miss my long hair 🌹

Veversken Tid

Den blonde veversken Tid

sitter i skyggerisset under trærne

med renningen av solstråler

spillende mellom fingrene.

– Jeg vever lys av mørke,

sier veversken Tid,

– og fletter sang av sorg.

Med forvandlingens under i fingertuppene

slår hun livet ditt nennsomt

inn i veven av glemsel.

Og det gjør ikke vondt mer. Din angst

blir lyset i en skjær bjørkelegg

i mainatta, din lengsel

en blomst som vender krona si blygt

for nattens dugg.


– Hans Børli

– Hans Børli
Books, Dharma, Everyday life, Landscape, List, Photography

Currently…

From a rainy autumn day in the Arctic 🍃🍂🍁

Reading: Aspergirls by Rudy Simone

Watching: Shameless on Netflix. British series from early 2000s. It’s brilliant!

Listening to on Audible: The Life of the Buddha and The Bhagavad Gita

Drinking every day: Black tea with stevia and soy milk

Happy about: Becoming better at expressing my wishes and boundaries

Not so happy about: Feeling confused about my living situation

Thankful for: Having a bit more financial security for the first time in years

Dharma, Everyday life, Landscape, Photography, Shop

Spring colours

Det er relativt lenge til våren i Norge, men tjuvstarta litt her i UK.

Jeg syns starten på det nye året har gått fort allerede, snart er det mars og hva har jeg fått utrettet? Vel, ikke så mye i den store sammenheng, men har definitivt tenkt mye på hva jeg skal i år. Her er en liten liste over årets planer; en av dem har jeg allerede gjennomført, skriver det kun for at det skal se mer ut, hah!

  • Buddhistretreat
  • Bryllup i New York (tenk at jeg skal få se min barndomsvenninne gifte seg, det blir uvirkelig)🗽
  • Sy ferdig den nye kofta mi
  • Flere buddhistretreats📿
  • Male to gaver ferdig (maleri)🎨
  • Komme meg en tur til Øksfjord, Finnmark (roadtrip)🌅
  • Få igang nettbutikk på Etsy, så jeg kan selge noen av mine kreasjoner. Jeg hadde Etsy-butikk en gang i tiden for noen år siden, men var ikke så flink å holde den oppdatert. Prøver på nytt! PS; om du har et snedig forslag til nettbutikknavn, tas det i mot med takk og bukk i kommentarfeltet🤓

Håper alle har en fin uke, god lille-lørdag 🌻👏

Adventure, Dharma, Landscape, Photography, Spirituality

Sky

When one looks toward one’s own mind –

The root of all phenomena –

There is nothing but vivid emptiness,
Nothing concrete there to be taken as real.

It is present and transparent, utter openness,
Without outside, without inside –
An all pervasiveness
Without boundary and without direction.

The wide-open expanse of the view,
The true condition of the mind,
Is like the sky, like space:
Without center, without edge, without goal.

By leaving whatever i experience
Relaxed in ease, just as it is,
I have arrived at the vast plain
That is the absolute expanse.

Dissolving into the expanse of emptiness
That has no limits and no boundary,
Everything i see, everything i hear,
My own mind, and the sky all merge.

– Shabkar

Adventure, Everyday life, Landscape, Photography, Photoshoot, Poems, Spirituality

Polar night

Det kvile ei natt over landet i nord,
Husan e små der kor menneskan bor.
Men tida e travel i karrige kår,
rokken han svive og vevstolen går
Det leve i løa, i naustet og smia
Et lys, et lys, et lys imot mørketida

Snøen ligg tung over frossen jord
ute står mørket om fjell og om fjord
vår herre gir livberging, søtmat og sul
når døgnan sig fram imot advendt og jul
så støpe vi lys midt i hardaste ria
et lys, et lys, et lys imot mørketida

Dagen e borte og natta e stor
men i mørketidslandet skal høres et ord
ei sol som skal snu så det bære mot dag
om folk som skal samles til helg og til lag
på veien mot Betlehem bære Maria
et lys, et lys, et lys imot mørketida

– Trygve Hoff

Foto av Susanne Pedersen 🙏

Art, Dharma, Photography, Spirituality, Yoga

Clear mind, pure heart

ladakh1

What buddhism and the dharma means to me

These past couple of days, my mind has been spinning in the direction of motivation and inspiration towards writing and painting. I feel creative again, after many, many months of having a huge creative blockage in my system. I’m painting and writing letters to people I care about. I’m not feeling as critical towards my own ability to create, and therefore I am able to play around more without being too hung up on the result. I even found the courage to go ask an art studio and a gallery in town if they wanted to display my paintings, and they did! What an adrenaline kick.

Anyway. I felt like writing about my buddhist path. Two nights ago, I was at a small get-together, a moving-in-party at a buddhist friend´s place, and the conversation steered towards spirituality and religion. Me and this friend were the only practicing buddhists in the room, and it became evident to me that there are a lot of assuptions about buddhism that I just don’t find true at all, in my personal experience. For example that the (historical) Buddha Shakyamuni is looked upon as a God, above other people/followers, that enlightenment/buddhahood is something mystical only available to certain people and that spirituality is only empty rituals.

To me, it only makes sense that since we all have a mind, that means we all have the ability to transform it, to step out of the wheel of suffering and confusion. And since we all have a heart, we all have the potential to open it towards all living beings, and develop a compassionate heart without disrimination. The Buddha Shakyamuni showed us it’s possible, and so did many other dharma practitioners and teachers, such as Yeshe Tsogyal, Padmasambhava and Jetsun Milarepa – to mention a few. 

I think it’s important to remember that when we are practicing dharma, it is not to become a part of Tibetan or Indian culture, or to belong to any other culture with a strong tie to buddhism. It is “simply” to be a kind of scientist who looks closely at our own minds, and to be able to use the samsaric (cyclic) mind as a tool to transform it into an enlightened one. Training our minds through meditation. In this sense, I feel buddhism has much more of a spiritual approach to it, than a religious one. There is a lot of religious and cultural baggage attached to buddhism that I personally don’t agree with; for example putting young children in monasteries, away from their families, blindly believing something just because a robed person said it without using common sense to check it for yourself, and the still-existing patriarchy that’s still going on in some areas of buddhism.

Despite this, I still call myself a buddhist, or dharma practitioner, because I feel a strong devotion in my own heart to practice the dharma following the buddhist approach and a motivation to transform my mind using the buddhist teachings. I feel lucky to not live in a poor country and to have time to practice and to be able to go on retreats 3-4 times a year with a wonderful sangha and a very capable teacher. I also feel like the basic buddhist principles of ethics, honesty and being of help and benefit to others is such a beautiful and transformative thing which one can implement in one’s daily life.

Having been doing yogic practice for about 7 years now, I definitely feel like I have a more clear mind and a more pure heart. Still long ways to go, but feeling progress is golden. If you’d like to check out the tradition I am practicing in, go to openheart.fi 🙂

KalosFilter_2017-05-03-10-03-47 – Kopi

Art, Hair, Jewellery, Outfit, Photography

Plastic fantastic

Six years ago a lovely friend of mine took some photos of me in Bukta in Troms, and last week at the Bukta festival I randomly met her again while picking trash 😛 We decided to meet up for another photoshoot, and so we did yesterday! We tried many different looks, this one might be my favorite. Raincoat, bra and latex skirt. Perfect summer outfit :’D (Not, it was so warm, it felt like I was wearing a portable sauna!)

You can check out her instagram here!

LRM_EXPORT_20180728_215357LRM_EXPORT_20180728_215601LRM_EXPORT_20180728_215711LRM_EXPORT_20180728_215752

Photo edit by me

Dharma, Landscape, Photography

In particular

37336503_10212661027420806_7946338235230191616_n

“A merchant crossing a forest infested with thieves would keep a weapon ready to hand. A traveler passing through a country ravaged by plague would take with him an assortment of medicines. In the same way, living as you do under the constant threat of emotions like anger, desire, pride, jealousy and many others, you should always be ready to fight them off with the appropriate antidotes. Constant vigilance is the mark of a sincere practitioner. You may know how to practice when everything is going well, but that is of little use if you succumb to the first emotion that hits you.

Good practitioners can be recognized by their response to difficult situations liable to provoke latent emotions. Those capable of reacting immediately with the correct antidote will have no problem overcoming obstacles.

In particular, if they know how to transcend the concepts of subject and object, all their thoughts will liberate themselves, like a snake wriggling out of the knots tied in its own body, without effort or help. When you trace all thoughts and concepts back to their very source, you will recognize that they all have the same true nature – emptiness inseparable from transcendent wisdom.”

~ Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche

Adventure, Culture, Landscape, Photography, Spirituality

Riddu Riddu 2018

37268915_10212638429055861_8277647799080714240_n37289221_10212641771459419_2957837611890114560_n37210347_10212641764339241_8665243742568972288_n37202724_10212641748618848_1460000301787381760_n37323940_10212641768939356_7407278298658504704_n37198801_10212641772339441_3992531152308011008_n37196248_10212641768419343_2772665152099581952_n37270806_10212641746418793_3159827711912837120_n37315304_10212641747738826_2828798540707266560_n37278896_10212641749098860_3659981330751422464_n
Noen blinkskudd fra årets Riddu Riddu-festival i Manndalen! Herrefred, kor æ kosa mæ 😀 Topp fem mest minneverdige øyeblikk fra festivalen:

1. Tyva Kyzy – et tuvansk strupesanggruppe. Fikk sett de hele 3 ganga; en intimkonsert i en yurta, en gang på hovedscenen og enda en gang under frivilligfesten.
2. DJ Shub + Classic Roots, de spilte på fredagen (sjanger: pow wow dub). Du kan sjekke ut en av de beste sangene her.
3. Møte med andre urkulturer.
4. Koselige stunder rundt bål.
5. Alle de vakre koftene som var å se.

Art, Outfit, Photography, Photoshoot, Sewing

Friday funday

Had a very fun, lively and creative photoshoot with my good friend David González (Buendia photography) in his studio in Tromsø city. I have made the clothes myself 😀 The green string bag is made of photography printed fabric, picture was taken close to where i grew up 🙂 Feel free to contact if you would like to purchase one yourself, or are interested in any of the clothes as well.

IMG_2187IMG_2192IMG_2224IMG_2234IMG_2283IMG_2284IMG_2309IMG_2375IMG_2380IMG_2381IMG_2387IMG_2391IMG_2439IMG_2443IMG_2452IMG_2478IMG_2503IMG_2511IMG_2530IMG_2541IMG_2489

Landscape, Photography, Poems

Stormy weather

20.mai2018

THE WELL OF GRIEF

Those who will not slip beneath
the still surface on the well of grief,

turning down through its black water
to the place we cannot breathe,

will never know the source from which we drink,
the secret water, cold and clear,

nor find in the darkness glimmering,

the small round coins,
thrown by those who wished for something else.

– Poem by David Whyte

Art, Photography

Monotypi

Perspektivet museum har de siste månedene hatt en fantastisk fin postkortutstilling med samiske motiv (samlet av Alan Borvos mellom slutten av 1800-tallet og til midten av 1900-tallet), og nå nylig hadde de et foredrag om nettopp denne utstillingen, samt at man kunne få lov å prøve monotypi (maleteknikk). Sykt morsom teknikk, absolutt noe jeg blir å prøve hjemme selv!

Utstillingen "Med Blikk for det samiske" på Perspektivet Museum
Bilde tatt av Perspektivet Museum sin fotograf

Utstillingen "Med Blikk for det samiske" på Perspektivet Museum
Bilde tatt av Perspektivet Museum sin fotograf

20180417_125525_resized20180417_125322_resized
Tok noen bilder av utstillingen med mobilen. Så mange fine postkort/fotografi!

Utstillingen "Med Blikk for det samiske" på Perspektivet Museum
Bilde tatt av Perspektivet Museum sin fotograf

20180417_133910_resized20180417_164723_resized

Monotypi: legg en glassplate over et motiv (postkort, foto etc.), mal på glassplaten etter motivet og deretter ta et avtrykk av glassplaten med papir. Voila!

Likte litt at hun ble ansiktsløs (da jeg ikke er noe flink å male ansikt), føler det representerer på en måte den undertrykkelsen og anonymiseringen av urfolk som har vært – og enda er, til en viss grad. Når man ser på henne (min versjon til høyre), kunne det nesten vært “hvilken som helst” urkvinne.

20180420_150402_resized

 

Dharma, Landscape, Photography, Yoga

Song of Three’s

IMG_20180321_000055_449

Milarepa’s Song of Threes

Thunder, lightning, and the southern clouds, these three,
Although they arise, they arise from the sky itself;
Although they dissolve, they dissolve into the sky itself.

Rainbows, mist, and fog, these three,
Although they arise, they arise from the earth itself;
Although they dissolve, they dissolve into the earth itself.

Forests, flowers, and leaves, these three,
Although they arise, they arise from the mountain itself;
Although they dissolve, they dissolve into the mountain itself.

Rivers, bubbles, and waves, these three,
Although they arise, they arise from the ocean itself;
Although they dissolve, they dissolve into the ocean itself.

Habitual tendencies, clinging, and fixation, these three,
Although they arise, they arise from the All-Ground itself;
Although they dissolve, they dissolve into the All-Ground itself.

Natural awareness, natural lucidity, and natural liberation, these three,
Although they arise, they arise from the nature of mind itself;
Although they dissolve, they dissolve into the nature of mind itself.

The birthless, the deathless, and the expressionless, these three,
Although they arise, they arise from the nature of things itself;
Although they dissolve, they dissolve into the nature of things itself.

The appearance as demons, the apprehension as demons, and the conceptualizing as demons, these three,
Although they arise, they arise from the Yogi himself;
Although they dissolve, they dissolve into the Yogi himself.

– Milarepa

Adventure, Everyday life, Landscape, Photography

Blått vær

29511577_10211900834576460_4114079873899522336_n29512165_10211900834136449_5318493700497435539_n29512699_10211900836016496_3343254860788257899_n29541666_10211900829056322_2942478032821457440_n29542425_10211900835376480_5210762981715343304_n29570811_10211900833536434_1754586093796330286_n29570861_10211900828576310_6351078081222973548_n29572428_10211900836736514_6999207108341471075_n29594971_10211900828136299_4509299177155609420_n29695338_10211900827816291_6110613331864740852_n
20180308_113429
IMG_20180313_070459_169
20180312_113710(0)20180312_11535320180313_12485520180313_13334620180313_155053

Litt bilder fra de siste ukene. Ramfjord, Ersfjord, Storelva og Lyfjord 🙂 Jeg har til og med vært på skitur; tre ganger! For første gang på fem år. Selv om det tar all energien jeg har, og krever mye planlegging både før og etter, så føles det verdt det å komme seg ut og bruke kroppen. Jeg elsker jo å være utendørs, skulle virkelig ønske jeg kunne gjøre slike ting oftere, ja – faen heller, hele tiden! Springe på fjellet, gå lange skiturer, klatre på berg og i trær..:) Naturen, ass.

bitmoji-20180331030239

Adventure, Art, Everyday life, Health, Music, Photography

2018

I am definitely not gonna write a “new year, new me” post, because I am really not trying to improve myself. If anything, I am trying to dissolve what is left of “me”-identity 😀 I am not going to say “2018 will be the best year” either because the last two times I did that, the year proved to be the absolute worst/hardest, haha. Not gonna jinx it this time!

The new year has started off with a very bad flu + migraines + something called laryngitis (constant couching and loss of voice). Luckily, people rarely call me, so good old texting is in order! I hope I get better fast, tho, because I have some couchsurfing hosting to attend to, and also there is the TIFF (Tromsø International Film Festival) coming up. Plus some concerts…and parties…ah, how will I find the energy to do all this 🙂

IMG_6628
I do, however, want to say that I wish the new year will be even more creative and that I will find more motivation for my art. Doubt and low energy has been big for me these last months and it has affected me a lot. I also wish that I will develop and find meaningful connections and adventures this year. I don’t believe it is good for anyone to be too much alone or isolated, even if you have chronic illness or social anxiety or whatever reason. I have been in a place where being around people have been *impossible*. So I am so grateful that is not the case anymore, and lately Couchsurfing has been kind of a lifesaver in that regard. I don’t have a job or go to school, so meeting new people this way is really nice. I still love my own space, but balance is always key 🙂

Last year, in January, I started a crowdfunding for a medical treatment (rehabilitation) in the Dead Sea, next to Jordan and Israel.. I have not received enough funds to go there yet, but if I do within the next 8 months, it is very possible I will go. Other than that, the year is pretty much open to whatever happens. Not gonna plan too much.

Happy new year, folks 🙂

Everyday life, Photography, Poems

Mørketid

 

 

IMG_20171112_122238_367IMG_20171112_122439_026IMG_20171111_161223_434

Bildene er tatt i Spåkenes.

*   *   *

Av og til
må noe vare lenge,
ellers mister vi vel vettet snart,
så fort som allting snurrer rundt med oss.
Store trær er fint
og riktig gamle hus er fint,
men enda bedre –
fjell.

Som ikke flytter seg en tomme
om hele verden enn forandres
(og det må den snart),
så står de der
og står og står
så du har noe å legge pannen inntil,
og kjøle deg
og holde i noe fast.

Jeg trives med fjell.
De lager horisonter
med store hugg i,
som de var smidd av smeder.

 

Utdrag av Rolf Jacobsens dikt ‘Mere fjell’

 

Landscape, Outfit, Photography

Nu e det sommer

Sommeren kom så plutselig på – over natta var det blitt grønt og opp mot 30 varmegrader. Det kan jeg like. Så da var det innafor å investere i et par uteblomster; to blodamaranter og en lavendellilla sak jeg ikke husker navnet på 😉 Sommeren i nord er kort, men herlig, og noe av det beste jeg vet er midnattsola. Er egentlig en ihuga tilhenger av å legge meg før midnatt, men det er vanskelig på sommeren, når det er så lyst og fint her. I går kveld var det ekstra fint; gul/lilla himmel og perfekt lys til å ta noen bilder 🙂

20170617_224215-0120170617_224252-01
20170617_224045-01

De var jammen meg kul i svart/hvitt også! Håper alle har en fin, kreativ og avslappende sommer ❤ Selv har jeg vært litt lite produktiv på den kreative fronten; jeg har noen maleriprosjekter på gang som jeg ikke har blitt ferdig med, men håper å komme i gang igjen til uka.

 

Everyday life, Landscape, Photography

Fjæra

18378717_10209437247188315_831956167_o18337352_10209437247308318_468563525_n18309112_10209437247548324_147806665_n

Idag tok jeg meg en liten tur ut for å få litt friskluft og for å meditere i fjæra, samt ta litt bilder. Ikke den mest fantastiske kvaliteten på bildene, da jeg måtte bruke mobilkameraet framfor speilreflekskameraet fordi jeg glemte minnekortet hjemme, og den korte turen opp fra fjæra for å hente det virka som et stort tiltak der og da. Vel, de ble jo litt brukbar! 😀

Ellers har dagen blitt brukt til å se videre på Game of Thrones, som jeg startet på på nytt for noen dager siden. Fant ut at jeg skal se alle sesongene en gang til før den syvende kommer i begynnelsen av juli. Må si at jeg ikke husker halvparten av det som skjer i serien, må har vært veldig lite tilstede første gang jeg så det. Eller så er det bare den “gode” gamle hjernetåka/ME-hodet som gjør det hele litt vanskelig å følge med på.

bitmoji-20170329120250