Noen bilder fra en utendørsutstilling jeg hadde på Klimakunstfestivalen i begynnelsen av juni i Tromsø.
Dedication prayer by Pema Tashi:
For as long as this deluded mind identifies with this impure, illusory body, everything you do is a cause of saṃsāra, and the results never transcend suffering. Even though occasions of prosperity in mundane existence do occur, it is obvious that these unreal, illusory deceptions lead you astray. So here is advice on the meaning of identitylessness to be followed by those who recognize this and seek liberation. If you do not realize that all phenomena in saṃsāra and nirvāṇa are simply your own appearances, with no basis or root, by merely knowing a superficial emptiness, you will not achieve the Mahāyāna ārya grounds.
If you do not realize how to transform into the path the spontaneously actualized appearances of the radiance of pristine awareness of the essential nature of original purity, you will be overcome by the dust of transmigration among the three appearances, failing to see the original nature of existence.
Therefore, the sole protector of all beings, which is unrivaled in the realms of mundane existence and ultimate peace, is this one supreme path that has been and will be followed by all jinas. By the power of the blessings of great compassion and the great fortune and good deeds of disciples, this appears only this one time, so it is difficult to find and is even more rare than the udumbara flower.
If it is said that by merely hearing its name, even great sinners are freed from the miserable realms of existence, it is certain that those who practice by hearing, thinking, and meditating will become bodhisattvas who reach the end of mundane existence. Careful examination of this reveals the great significance of finding it, which surpasses finding a wish-fulfilling jewel.
Those who unwaveringly devote themselves to this day and night are exalted as the foremost of all Dharma practitioners. Although there is nothing more profound than the Dharma of the Great Perfection, for those who fail to connect with it and who arrogantly denounce cause and effect, it is a cause for miserable rebirths.
Until you have reached a high level of realization, such that you experience no pain even if you are cut with a weapon, with great devotion apply yourself to the profound practical instructions on what to abandon and what to follow in terms of cause and effect. Although the meditative equipoise of the Great Perfection is ineffable, when first entering the practice as a novice, even if you express your opinions to others as if you were accompanied by visions of texts and reasoning, it is important to gain certainty regarding explanations that do not contradict the profound nature of existence and the vast nature of appearances, so that you know how to properly teach what does and does not exist, what is and is not, and what is to be avoided and what is to be practiced.
If you are a courageous practitioner of this discipline, you will not be overcome by adversity, but immature people discriminate against others in terms of comparing their class to others’. In a pleasant, wonderful place of solitude, which pacifies outer and inner distractions, abandon pointless and trivial concerns and activities and apply yourself to practicing the essence of that which is greatly meaningful.
Come to know the ultimate nature of existence, like the space of the sky, and abide in displays of practice. The wisdom of an ordinary person lacking inborn and cultivated virtues does not go far, like the flight of a honeybee, but once you have found delight in the garden of excellent meaning, the melodious explanation of whatever you have understood will hum forth. Those who taste this sweet essence again and again perfect the power of blessed confidence. Those who divulge secrets incur problems, and those who despise or disparage this path will be tormented by duḥkha; it is inadvisable to divulge anything even upwind of such people. When perceiving this path, suitable vessels feel great devotion and confidence in its explanation; even if they are from a low class and poor, it is said that they should be taught without reservation.
Guardians and protective demons of the teachings of secret mantra punish those who violate their samayas, and they support and befriend those who keep them; understand how they do so in accordance with traditional accounts.
May the immaculate collections of virtue, dedicated following the wisdom of Mañjughoṣa, flow like the current of the Ganges. May the experience of the nature of existence by way of this effortless path merge with the ocean of omniscience. In the short term, may unfavorable circumstances throughout the world fully subside, and may our spiritual and mundane bounties be equal to the fortune of the gods of Tuṣita.
Through thick and thin until enlightenment, may we always be accompanied by the unfailing affection and respect of vajra siblings with common karma and aspirations, and may we practice the Vajrayāna.
Et av mine nyeste maleri; akryl på lerret, 45 x 55 cm. Inspirert av det kalde arktiske landskapet i januar 😊💙
Den blonde veversken Tid
sitter i skyggerisset under trærne
med renningen av solstråler
spillende mellom fingrene.
– Jeg vever lys av mørke,
sier veversken Tid,
– og fletter sang av sorg.
Med forvandlingens under i fingertuppene
slår hun livet ditt nennsomt
inn i veven av glemsel.
Og det gjør ikke vondt mer. Din angst
blir lyset i en skjær bjørkelegg
i mainatta, din lengsel
en blomst som vender krona si blygt
for nattens dugg.
– Hans Børli
“Du vet når en tulipan henger med huet, og så trøkker man den inn blant de andre for at den skal stå oppreist… Et sånt samfunn vil jeg ha.” 🧡🌷💐
Reading: Aspergirls by Rudy Simone
Watching: Shameless on Netflix. British series from early 2000s. It’s brilliant!
Listening to on Audible: The Life of the Buddha and The Bhagavad Gita
Drinking every day: Black tea with stevia and soy milk
Happy about: Becoming better at expressing my wishes and boundaries
Not so happy about: Feeling confused about my living situation
Thankful for: Having a bit more financial security for the first time in years
The root of all phenomena –
There is nothing but vivid emptiness,
Nothing concrete there to be taken as real.
Det kvile ei natt over landet i nord,
Husan e små der kor menneskan bor.
Men tida e travel i karrige kår,
rokken han svive og vevstolen går
Det leve i løa, i naustet og smia
Et lys, et lys, et lys imot mørketida
Snøen ligg tung over frossen jord
ute står mørket om fjell og om fjord
vår herre gir livberging, søtmat og sul
når døgnan sig fram imot advendt og jul
så støpe vi lys midt i hardaste ria
et lys, et lys, et lys imot mørketida
Dagen e borte og natta e stor
men i mørketidslandet skal høres et ord
ei sol som skal snu så det bære mot dag
om folk som skal samles til helg og til lag
på veien mot Betlehem bære Maria
et lys, et lys, et lys imot mørketida
– Trygve Hoff
Foto av Susanne Pedersen 🙏
Cave, rock and tunnel exploration in Laksvatn, down by the sea. Autumn is really here, the colors speak for themselves 🙂
What buddhism and the dharma means to me
These past couple of days, my mind has been spinning in the direction of motivation and inspiration towards writing and painting. I feel creative again, after many, many months of having a huge creative blockage in my system. I’m painting and writing letters to people I care about. I’m not feeling as critical towards my own ability to create, and therefore I am able to play around more without being too hung up on the result. I even found the courage to go ask an art studio and a gallery in town if they wanted to display my paintings, and they did! What an adrenaline kick.
Anyway. I felt like writing about my buddhist path. Two nights ago, I was at a small get-together, a moving-in-party at a buddhist friend´s place, and the conversation steered towards spirituality and religion. Me and this friend were the only practicing buddhists in the room, and it became evident to me that there are a lot of assuptions about buddhism that I just don’t find true at all, in my personal experience. For example that the (historical) Buddha Shakyamuni is looked upon as a God, above other people/followers, that enlightenment/buddhahood is something mystical only available to certain people and that spirituality is only empty rituals.
To me, it only makes sense that since we all have a mind, that means we all have the ability to transform it, to step out of the wheel of suffering and confusion. And since we all have a heart, we all have the potential to open it towards all living beings, and develop a compassionate heart without disrimination. The Buddha Shakyamuni showed us it’s possible, and so did many other dharma practitioners and teachers, such as Yeshe Tsogyal, Padmasambhava and Jetsun Milarepa – to mention a few.
I think it’s important to remember that when we are practicing dharma, it is not to become a part of Tibetan or Indian culture, or to belong to any other culture with a strong tie to buddhism. It is “simply” to be a kind of scientist who looks closely at our own minds, and to be able to use the samsaric (cyclic) mind as a tool to transform it into an enlightened one. Training our minds through meditation. In this sense, I feel buddhism has much more of a spiritual approach to it, than a religious one. There is a lot of religious and cultural baggage attached to buddhism that I personally don’t agree with; for example putting young children in monasteries, away from their families, blindly believing something just because a robed person said it without using common sense to check it for yourself, and the still-existing patriarchy that’s still going on in some areas of buddhism.
Despite this, I still call myself a buddhist, or dharma practitioner, because I feel a strong devotion in my own heart to practice the dharma following the buddhist approach and a motivation to transform my mind using the buddhist teachings. I feel lucky to not live in a poor country and to have time to practice and to be able to go on retreats 3-4 times a year with a wonderful sangha and a very capable teacher. I also feel like the basic buddhist principles of ethics, honesty and being of help and benefit to others is such a beautiful and transformative thing which one can implement in one’s daily life.
Having been doing yogic practice for about 7 years now, I definitely feel like I have a more clear mind and a more pure heart. Still long ways to go, but feeling progress is golden. If you’d like to check out the tradition I am practicing in, go to openheart.fi 🙂
Wonderful rainbow on the next last day of this year’s summer retreat.
Hallo der nede! 👋 Foto fra flytur over Norge et sted 🌏 Blir aldri lei av å se fjell, og det er ikke ofte jeg får sett de fra denne vinkelen. Fy søren, så fint!⛰
Photographer: Agnetha Mortensen (@dirtydaypictures)
Photo edit by me 🙂
Photography by Agnetha Mortensen (@dirtydaypictures)
Photo edit by me 🙂
The neon top was a lucky thrift store find here in Tromsø, and my awesome vintage 70’s panties was another lucky thrift store find in Finland last year.
Six years ago a lovely friend of mine took some photos of me in Bukta in Troms, and last week at the Bukta festival I randomly met her again while picking trash 😛 We decided to meet up for another photoshoot, and so we did yesterday! We tried many different looks, this one might be my favorite. Raincoat, bra and latex skirt. Perfect summer outfit :’D (Not, it was so warm, it felt like I was wearing a portable sauna!)
You can check out her instagram here!
Photo edit by me
Jammen ble det en liten tur til Bukta også. Men helt ærlig, er jeg glad festivalstyret er over, jeg er utslitt, haha. Hadde det dog kjempekoselig, været var varmt til tross for litt regn og torden, og musikken var også helt innafor.
“A merchant crossing a forest infested with thieves would keep a weapon ready to hand. A traveler passing through a country ravaged by plague would take with him an assortment of medicines. In the same way, living as you do under the constant threat of emotions like anger, desire, pride, jealousy and many others, you should always be ready to fight them off with the appropriate antidotes. Constant vigilance is the mark of a sincere practitioner. You may know how to practice when everything is going well, but that is of little use if you succumb to the first emotion that hits you.
Good practitioners can be recognized by their response to difficult situations liable to provoke latent emotions. Those capable of reacting immediately with the correct antidote will have no problem overcoming obstacles.
In particular, if they know how to transcend the concepts of subject and object, all their thoughts will liberate themselves, like a snake wriggling out of the knots tied in its own body, without effort or help. When you trace all thoughts and concepts back to their very source, you will recognize that they all have the same true nature – emptiness inseparable from transcendent wisdom.”
~ Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche
Noen blinkskudd fra årets Riddu Riddu-festival i Manndalen! Herrefred, kor æ kosa mæ 😀 Topp fem mest minneverdige øyeblikk fra festivalen:
1. Tyva Kyzy – et tuvansk strupesanggruppe. Fikk sett de hele 3 ganga; en intimkonsert i en yurta, en gang på hovedscenen og enda en gang under frivilligfesten.
2. DJ Shub + Classic Roots, de spilte på fredagen (sjanger: pow wow dub). Du kan sjekke ut en av de beste sangene her.
3. Møte med andre urkulturer.
4. Koselige stunder rundt bål.
5. Alle de vakre koftene som var å se.
Vakre Karlsøya i Troms på en veldig velkommen varm junidag, etter flere uker med kaldt og vått vær.
“If you know the way, light it for others.”
Bedre sent enn aldri; noen bilder fra en fantastisk fin vårdag i Brensholmen utenfor Tromsø 🙂
“Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished.” – Lao Tzu
Had a very fun, lively and creative photoshoot with my good friend David González (Buendia photography) in his studio in Tromsø city. I have made the clothes myself 😀 The green string bag is made of photography printed fabric, picture was taken close to where i grew up 🙂 Feel free to contact if you would like to purchase one yourself, or are interested in any of the clothes as well.
THE WELL OF GRIEF
Those who will not slip beneath
the still surface on the well of grief,
turning down through its black water
to the place we cannot breathe,
will never know the source from which we drink,
the secret water, cold and clear,
nor find in the darkness glimmering,
the small round coins,
thrown by those who wished for something else.
– Poem by David Whyte
Perspektivet museum har de siste månedene hatt en fantastisk fin postkortutstilling med samiske motiv (samlet av Alan Borvos mellom slutten av 1800-tallet og til midten av 1900-tallet), og nå nylig hadde de et foredrag om nettopp denne utstillingen, samt at man kunne få lov å prøve monotypi (maleteknikk). Sykt morsom teknikk, absolutt noe jeg blir å prøve hjemme selv!
Tok noen bilder av utstillingen med mobilen. Så mange fine postkort/fotografi!
Monotypi: legg en glassplate over et motiv (postkort, foto etc.), mal på glassplaten etter motivet og deretter ta et avtrykk av glassplaten med papir. Voila!
Likte litt at hun ble ansiktsløs (da jeg ikke er noe flink å male ansikt), føler det representerer på en måte den undertrykkelsen og anonymiseringen av urfolk som har vært – og enda er, til en viss grad. Når man ser på henne (min versjon til høyre), kunne det nesten vært “hvilken som helst” urkvinne.
Thunder, lightning, and the southern clouds, these three,
Although they arise, they arise from the sky itself;
Although they dissolve, they dissolve into the sky itself.
Rainbows, mist, and fog, these three,
Although they arise, they arise from the earth itself;
Although they dissolve, they dissolve into the earth itself.
Forests, flowers, and leaves, these three,
Although they arise, they arise from the mountain itself;
Although they dissolve, they dissolve into the mountain itself.
Rivers, bubbles, and waves, these three,
Although they arise, they arise from the ocean itself;
Although they dissolve, they dissolve into the ocean itself.
Habitual tendencies, clinging, and fixation, these three,
Although they arise, they arise from the All-Ground itself;
Although they dissolve, they dissolve into the All-Ground itself.
Natural awareness, natural lucidity, and natural liberation, these three,
Although they arise, they arise from the nature of mind itself;
Although they dissolve, they dissolve into the nature of mind itself.
The birthless, the deathless, and the expressionless, these three,
Although they arise, they arise from the nature of things itself;
Although they dissolve, they dissolve into the nature of things itself.
The appearance as demons, the apprehension as demons, and the conceptualizing as demons, these three,
Although they arise, they arise from the Yogi himself;
Although they dissolve, they dissolve into the Yogi himself.
Litt bilder fra de siste ukene. Ramfjord, Ersfjord, Storelva og Lyfjord 🙂 Jeg har til og med vært på skitur; tre ganger! For første gang på fem år. Selv om det tar all energien jeg har, og krever mye planlegging både før og etter, så føles det verdt det å komme seg ut og bruke kroppen. Jeg elsker jo å være utendørs, skulle virkelig ønske jeg kunne gjøre slike ting oftere, ja – faen heller, hele tiden! Springe på fjellet, gå lange skiturer, klatre på berg og i trær..:) Naturen, ass.
Januar er favorittmåneden. Dagene blir fort lysere, og sola “kommer tilbake”. Alt ser friskt og nytt ut når det er så mye snø, og selv om det er veldig kaldt, fins det varme rundt meg. I folks hjem, i bilen, fra stearinlys, i musikk, fra dyr, i relasjoner, under dyna. Ja, også har jeg bursdag i januar. Det er alltid stas 🙂
I am definitely not gonna write a “new year, new me” post, because I am really not trying to improve myself. If anything, I am trying to dissolve what is left of “me”-identity 😀 I am not going to say “2018 will be the best year” either because the last two times I did that, the year proved to be the absolute worst/hardest, haha. Not gonna jinx it this time!
The new year has started off with a very bad flu + migraines + something called laryngitis (constant couching and loss of voice). Luckily, people rarely call me, so good old texting is in order! I hope I get better fast, tho, because I have some couchsurfing hosting to attend to, and also there is the TIFF (Tromsø International Film Festival) coming up. Plus some concerts…and parties…ah, how will I find the energy to do all this 🙂
I do, however, want to say that I wish the new year will be even more creative and that I will find more motivation for my art. Doubt and low energy has been big for me these last months and it has affected me a lot. I also wish that I will develop and find meaningful connections and adventures this year. I don’t believe it is good for anyone to be too much alone or isolated, even if you have chronic illness or social anxiety or whatever reason. I have been in a place where being around people have been *impossible*. So I am so grateful that is not the case anymore, and lately Couchsurfing has been kind of a lifesaver in that regard. I don’t have a job or go to school, so meeting new people this way is really nice. I still love my own space, but balance is always key 🙂
Last year, in January, I started a crowdfunding for a medical treatment (rehabilitation) in the Dead Sea, next to Jordan and Israel.. I have not received enough funds to go there yet, but if I do within the next 8 months, it is very possible I will go. Other than that, the year is pretty much open to whatever happens. Not gonna plan too much.
Happy new year, folks 🙂