Adventure, Art, DIY, Landscape, Photography, Poems, Spirituality

Shooting star

This leaf survived in my bag for 5 weeks, on planes and buses, just a little broken on the edges. I’ve run out of canvases, so I have started painting the things I’ve picked up that I said I would paint ‘one day’ 🍁


“There is a pleasure in the pathless woods, there is a rapture on the lonely shore, there is society where none intrudes, by the deep Sea, and music in its roar: I love not Man the less, but Nature more.” 💙💜💚

Beauty, Culture, DIY, Hair, Indigenous, Outfit, Photography, Photoshoot, Sewing

Feeling most like myself

Always feel the most beautiful in my own handmade clothing and/or traditional clothing. Sámi hat and skirt made by me 🙂
Photos by Sebastian Wilches, edit by me.
Not sure what I am doing with my hands, I never know how to hold them…(:
Photo and edit by Sebastian Wilches (@wilchesfotografia)
Kofte and wool hat made by me
Mittens by my ‘mother-in-law’ Kristin (@dachsedilla)
Photo by Sebastian Wilches, edit by me.
Awareness, Everyday life, Health, Photography, Photoshoot, Relationship, Spirituality

Love is love

If someone asked you ‘why’ you love your SO, partner or a crush, you could probably list a bunch if their nice qualities and things about them that you appreciate. But that is not WHY you love someone, because you can list the same qualities in a bunch of other people you don’t love. In fact, someone you hate can be extremely talented or compassionate. Your feelings towards or for someone does not change them.

These qualities and traits is probably something you noticed *after* getting feelings of love and affection. Love is funny and amazing like that; it will open your eyes and heart, and is not something you can ever control with your will or thoughts. It will also make one go the extra mile.

As far as I can tell, love just happens based on factors I do not understand entirely. Also, I think love and compassion is our basic nature. Humans are complicated, relationships are usually difficult, not always compatible, but often worth it.

I realise being polyamorous and queer/bi is not the norm, but it is part of what makes me Monica, and I feel very fortunate to live in a time and decade with less judgement, but it’s still here. At the beginning of this year, a friend of mine told me that she had used me as a example while trying to come out to her parents. It flattered me in a sense that she used me, but it was quickly gone again after she told me her dad’s response, which was basically that I was not the type of person he ever wanted her to hang out with again for being polyam and queer. My “practice was sick”. In the end, she did not come out. Made me extremely sad, and I do not feel welcome in their home anymore.


Love is love. Not in a naïve way where everything goes, but in a very basic human way, and there are as many ways of expressing it as there are people.

Adventure, Art, Culture, Dharma, DIY, Everyday life, Indigenous, Jewellery, Landscape, Outfit, Pets, Photography, Sewing, Tattoo, Uncategorized, Yoga

2019 in pictures

The sun returning in January in Bukta on Tromsø island
People greeting the sun
Was in Tamokdalen to help with a photo project. Beautiful crispy day
I made my first sámi silk shawl, in gorgeous yellow/gold
And a pair of ankle wraps. Hand vowen
…Kali liked them too!
Got one new tattoo this year 🙂 Painting in the background made for my bff
Met the cutest puppy!
Look at that face…🧡
Frozen raindrops outside my window
My best friend got married in Brooklyn. Unreal and beautiful. First time in the US for me ☺
Heidrun and me. Prettiest bride 🌻
Me in my handmade coast kofte. What a day 💚💛❤
In Central Park
Time’s square
Me being a total tourist ✌
Time’s Square again. It was colourful and overwhelming 🙃🌈
New York subway
Kvaløya, beautiful as always
Whale watching.. the sky was so pink that day
Orcas
Train ride in Oslo
Little cloud
Kim Katami and me on retreat 🧘‍♀️ New Years eve 2018/2019
Wales
My lovely friend and sangha sister, Elizabeth from Louisiana. We were in Birmingham
Retreat girls
Ice skating on this lake that made the coolest sounds
Kvaløya
Kvaløya, cold day on the beach. Around 15°c
Midnight sun 🌅 Håja mountain
Gained healthy weight this year 🙌
Did a giveaway on my facebook art page with this painting, got so good feedback, made me happy 🙂
Made more of these small cute paintings
Spain. I got very tan 🙃💛
Was two days in France. Didn’t get too explore too much because of time, money and energy, but saw this lovely garden in Toulouse
And met Blueberry the donkey!
Tromsø catethedral
Autumn was very pretty, as usual 🍁
Got my hair cut at a salon for the first time in 2,5 years😍
Paviljongen in Tromsø
Autumn day in Tromsø
Loke
Anti racism event at the town square, as a response to recent violence against indigenous people
My favourite painting from this year. Inspired by the Arctic polar night
Went to quite a lot of museums and exhibitions this year
Found this cool and weird coat on flea market
Was butt naked in a commercial 😅
Made an X-files painting for a friend 🛸

I have sooo many more pictures from this year, but some of them I feel are nice to keep private 😊💛

Happy new year, everyone!✨

Art, DIY, Landscape, Photography

Grønt og blått

Et rundt maleri fra noen år siden. Tror det er rundt 35 i diameter. Dette bildet tok jeg før jeg malte en hvit husky sittende på stien. Syns egentlig det var bedre uten 🙃 Glemt å legge det ut før 💚💙🧡
Et bittelite sommermaleri som jeg solgte i forrige uke. 9 x 6 cm 😊 Har noen maleri til salgs på SevenDesign i Tromsø🌿
Awareness, Everyday life, Health, Photography

Connecting

Photo by Irina Bileanschi from 2016. Such a fun shoot 💙

So, I wanted to just write a bit about my chronic conditions/disabilities, just in the hopes of connecting with others in a similar situation.

I used to post quite a lot about it, but realised that maybe it came across as complaining. So I stopped. I never wanted it to come out as complaining or like ‘hey, my life and health is shit’, but just as me telling people in my life and others who might be interested what was happening, why I couldn’t work or study, why I am on disability benefit. And also as a way for me to raise awareness about these things, because it seems needed. Both in terms of judgement and in terms of getting adequate medical treatment.

Related so much to this

Social media is such a big and important platform for chronically ill people. It connects us and we can use it as a way of still being in society, since we can’t always physically join things.

I have six conditions and it would be nice to connect with others in the same situation. So please leave a comment if you would like to share what everyday life is like for you!❤

(My conditions: myalgic encephalomyelitis, hypermobility syndrome, IBS, interstitial cystitis, migraine and I am on the spectrum. Being on the spectrum is absolutely not an illness, but it does affect how I function). 🤓

Art, DIY, Landscape, Photography

More blue

50 x 40 cm. Not completely in scale with the room in this room simulation, but wanted to show how the colours would work in a setting like that. The app is called HallFrames.
One shouldn’t have to move mountains for others, but it’s possible to climb them together. Shared sorrows are half the burden, shared joy is as good as infinite. ♾🎨💙🗻☺

One of my latest paintings! It didn’t turn out how I saw it in my head, just different, but still good. I used only three colours on it; white, blue and brown. Mostly blue, as I do with 90% of my art 💙🤓 I rarely use black in mountain/rock paintings, it’s too harsh, I find it much better to use different pigments that makes it all look much more true to nature. You rarely see all black nature, unless you are in Iceland or somewhere else vulcanic😄

Also, I have two of my paintings at the Arctic Adventure center in Tromsø. They are for sale by the way 😄

My chubby penguin is spending his Christmas at Arctic Adventure center alongside some peaks and good company 👭💙🎨🐧❤ #theonlypenguininthearctic
Awareness, Culture, DIY, Everyday life, Outfit, Pets, Photography, Sewing

Pride-parade 2019

Gruppebilde utenfor Kongsbakken vgs før vi begynte å gå.
Hva bedre å ha på seg til anledningen enn det antrekket jeg føler meg stoltest av og finest i 💃
har helt glemt å legge ut bilde av kofta mi på bloggen før, og hele syprosessen, men dette er altså min håndlagde kofte (som ennå ikke er helt ferdig, hysj🤓)
En veldig fargerik Katharina 🏳️‍🌈
I paraden.
Fikk meg en ny venn i paraden! @gullvinge på insta 😊
Imponerende kostymer..❄
😍
Everyday life, Photography

På loppiskafé

To nokså bra bilder Heidrun tok av meg på Kulta sin lille kafé på søndag. Likte fargene, masse nyanser av grønt. Og grønt liker vi!

Kulta hadde loppemarked, jeg fant meg en sykt kul kåpe med inuitmotiv, en fargerik tights som viste seg å være litt for trang over rumpestumpen da jeg kom hjem, et par rosa joggesko jeg hadde helt likens av for noen år siden (og angra på at jeg ga bort) samt en fin svart singlet med noe mønster. Kan legge ut bilder senere, iallfall av kåpa! 🤓
Dharma, Photography, Spirituality, Yoga

Dedication prayer

Photos from summer retreat 2019, UK

Excerpt from Dedication prayer by Pema Tashi:

For as long as this deluded mind identifies with this impure, illusory body, everything you do is a cause of saṃsāra, and the results never transcend suffering. Even though occasions of prosperity in mundane existence do occur, it is obvious that these unreal, illusory deceptions lead you astray. So here is advice on the meaning of identitylessness to be followed by those who recognize this and seek liberation. If you do not realize that all phenomena in saṃsāra and nirvāṇa are simply your own appearances, with no basis or root, by merely knowing a superficial emptiness, you will not achieve the Mahāyāna ārya grounds.

If you do not realize how to transform into the path the spontaneously actualized appearances of the radiance of pristine awareness of the essential nature of original purity, you will be overcome by the dust of transmigration among the three appearances, failing to see the original nature of existence.

Therefore, the sole protector of all beings, which is unrivaled in the realms of mundane existence and ultimate peace, is this one supreme path that has been and will be followed by all jinas. By the power of the blessings of great compassion and the great fortune and good deeds of disciples, this appears only this one time, so it is difficult to find and is even more rare than the udumbara flower.

Through thick and thin until enlightenment, may we always be accompanied by the unfailing affection and respect of vajra siblings with common karma and aspirations, and may we practice the Vajrayāna.

Photography, Photoshoot, Poems

Veversken Tid

Photo by Irina Bileanschi, 2016 📸 Miss my long hair 🌹

Veversken Tid

Den blonde veversken Tid

sitter i skyggerisset under trærne

med renningen av solstråler

spillende mellom fingrene.

– Jeg vever lys av mørke,

sier veversken Tid,

– og fletter sang av sorg.

Med forvandlingens under i fingertuppene

slår hun livet ditt nennsomt

inn i veven av glemsel.

Og det gjør ikke vondt mer. Din angst

blir lyset i en skjær bjørkelegg

i mainatta, din lengsel

en blomst som vender krona si blygt

for nattens dugg.


– Hans Børli

– Hans Børli
Books, Dharma, Everyday life, Landscape, List, Photography

Currently…

From a rainy autumn day in the Arctic 🍃🍂🍁

Reading: Aspergirls by Rudy Simone

Watching: Shameless on Netflix. British series from early 2000s. It’s brilliant!

Listening to on Audible: The Life of the Buddha and The Bhagavad Gita

Drinking every day: Black tea with stevia and soy milk

Happy about: Becoming better at expressing my wishes and boundaries

Not so happy about: Feeling confused about my living situation

Thankful for: Having a bit more financial security for the first time in years

Adventure, Dharma, Landscape, Photography, Spirituality

Sky

When one looks toward one’s own mind –

The root of all phenomena –

There is nothing but vivid emptiness,
Nothing concrete there to be taken as real.

It is present and transparent, utter openness,
Without outside, without inside –
An all pervasiveness
Without boundary and without direction.

The wide-open expanse of the view,
The true condition of the mind,
Is like the sky, like space:
Without center, without edge, without goal.

By leaving whatever i experience
Relaxed in ease, just as it is,
I have arrived at the vast plain
That is the absolute expanse.

Dissolving into the expanse of emptiness
That has no limits and no boundary,
Everything i see, everything i hear,
My own mind, and the sky all merge.

– Shabkar

Adventure, Everyday life, Landscape, Photography, Photoshoot, Poems, Spirituality

Polar night

Det kvile ei natt over landet i nord,
Husan e små der kor menneskan bor.
Men tida e travel i karrige kår,
rokken han svive og vevstolen går
Det leve i løa, i naustet og smia
Et lys, et lys, et lys imot mørketida

Snøen ligg tung over frossen jord
ute står mørket om fjell og om fjord
vår herre gir livberging, søtmat og sul
når døgnan sig fram imot advendt og jul
så støpe vi lys midt i hardaste ria
et lys, et lys, et lys imot mørketida

Dagen e borte og natta e stor
men i mørketidslandet skal høres et ord
ei sol som skal snu så det bære mot dag
om folk som skal samles til helg og til lag
på veien mot Betlehem bære Maria
et lys, et lys, et lys imot mørketida

– Trygve Hoff

Foto av Susanne Pedersen 🙏

Art, Dharma, Photography, Spirituality, Yoga

Clear mind, pure heart

ladakh1

What buddhism and the dharma means to me

These past couple of days, my mind has been spinning in the direction of motivation and inspiration towards writing and painting. I feel creative again, after many, many months of having a huge creative blockage in my system. I’m painting and writing letters to people I care about. I’m not feeling as critical towards my own ability to create, and therefore I am able to play around more without being too hung up on the result. I even found the courage to go ask an art studio and a gallery in town if they wanted to display my paintings, and they did! What an adrenaline kick.

Anyway. I felt like writing about my buddhist path. Two nights ago, I was at a small get-together, a moving-in-party at a buddhist friend´s place, and the conversation steered towards spirituality and religion. Me and this friend were the only practicing buddhists in the room, and it became evident to me that there are a lot of assuptions about buddhism that I just don’t find true at all, in my personal experience. For example that the (historical) Buddha Shakyamuni is looked upon as a God, above other people/followers, that enlightenment/buddhahood is something mystical only available to certain people and that spirituality is only empty rituals.

To me, it only makes sense that since we all have a mind, that means we all have the ability to transform it, to step out of the wheel of suffering and confusion. And since we all have a heart, we all have the potential to open it towards all living beings, and develop a compassionate heart without disrimination. The Buddha Shakyamuni showed us it’s possible, and so did many other dharma practitioners and teachers, such as Yeshe Tsogyal, Padmasambhava and Jetsun Milarepa – to mention a few. 

I think it’s important to remember that when we are practicing dharma, it is not to become a part of Tibetan or Indian culture, or to belong to any other culture with a strong tie to buddhism. It is “simply” to be a kind of scientist who looks closely at our own minds, and to be able to use the samsaric (cyclic) mind as a tool to transform it into an enlightened one. Training our minds through meditation. In this sense, I feel buddhism has much more of a spiritual approach to it, than a religious one. There is a lot of religious and cultural baggage attached to buddhism that I personally don’t agree with; for example putting young children in monasteries, away from their families, blindly believing something just because a robed person said it without using common sense to check it for yourself, and the still-existing patriarchy that’s still going on in some areas of buddhism.

Despite this, I still call myself a buddhist, or dharma practitioner, because I feel a strong devotion in my own heart to practice the dharma following the buddhist approach and a motivation to transform my mind using the buddhist teachings. I feel lucky to not live in a poor country and to have time to practice and to be able to go on retreats 3-4 times a year with a wonderful sangha and a very capable teacher. I also feel like the basic buddhist principles of ethics, honesty and being of help and benefit to others is such a beautiful and transformative thing which one can implement in one’s daily life.

Having been doing yogic practice for about 7 years now, I definitely feel like I have a more clear mind and a more pure heart. Still long ways to go, but feeling progress is golden. If you’d like to check out the tradition I am practicing in, go to openheart.fi 🙂

KalosFilter_2017-05-03-10-03-47 – Kopi

Art, Hair, Jewellery, Outfit, Photography

Plastic fantastic

Six years ago a lovely friend of mine took some photos of me in Bukta in Troms, and last week at the Bukta festival I randomly met her again while picking trash 😛 We decided to meet up for another photoshoot, and so we did yesterday! We tried many different looks, this one might be my favorite. Raincoat, bra and latex skirt. Perfect summer outfit :’D (Not, it was so warm, it felt like I was wearing a portable sauna!)

You can check out her instagram here!

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Photo edit by me

Adventure, Culture, Landscape, Photography, Spirituality

Riddu Riddu 2018

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Noen blinkskudd fra årets Riddu Riddu-festival i Manndalen! Herrefred, kor æ kosa mæ 😀 Topp fem mest minneverdige øyeblikk fra festivalen:

1. Tyva Kyzy – et tuvansk strupesanggruppe. Fikk sett de hele 3 ganga; en intimkonsert i en yurta, en gang på hovedscenen og enda en gang under frivilligfesten.
2. DJ Shub + Classic Roots, de spilte på fredagen (sjanger: pow wow dub). Du kan sjekke ut en av de beste sangene her.
3. Møte med andre urkulturer.
4. Koselige stunder rundt bål.
5. Alle de vakre koftene som var å se.